Last night, I reflected on a discussion with a 988 counselor that referred me to something called Emotional Dysregulation. I looked it up after we spoke, but never really looked into it. I also spoke with my therapist, and she gave me a practice called Mindfulness Cubby holing. I haven’t had a chance to look at that yet, but what she explained is a way to recognize what you’re thinking and feeling then compartmentalizing them into the appropriate cubby. This allows you to stay present and not overreact.
I tried some TM in the early evening and that didn’t go well. I stopped around 13 minutes of the 20 and barely focused on my mantra with racing thoughts. I will try again this morning and then again in the evening. I did download a book about the Dysregulation; it’s called “You’re not Triggered, You’re Dysregulated: Managing the Nervous System & Regulating Emotions” by Maria Colomy.
It’s a short read which was great because it got to the point and didn’t bore you with background information. I found it insightful and spot on. It really helped me not just recognize what I had described as the old and new me in my previous post, but it made me think of some possible root causes. The best part is that it offered some ways to bring you back to the present. The methods are pretty common and in retrospect, I should have done them in the beginning, so I didn’t put myself in this situation with MMV.
As I move forward, I am just going to work on staying in the present, forgive my past, and let it go so it can’t interfere anymore. With practice and continued learning, I know I can take back control of my mind and actions.
Besides, it’s better to have a positive attitude moving forward than one dwelling on actions done that cannot be changed.
Minding my mind 