The past several weeks have been trying, to say the least. The last few days, I have been wondering why my expectations for one person in particular are so different than that of others.
I expect people to be dishonest, dismissive, secretive and for the most part, untrustworthy. However, I try to exercise empathy, understanding, and give them the opportunity to prove me wrong. Recently, this person has been increasingly secretive, dismissive, disrespectful, chastising me, and most of all lying to me without hesitation. I have never felt so hurt by someone; my mind is numb and my heart aches constantly.
My depression has spiraled, but I am managing thanks to years of therapy! Thankfully, writing has always helped me and there is a journaling “challenge” going on with RWB which gives me even more reason to jump on here.
I want to understand, but I have been blocked out as that is the way this person “copes” or whatever is happening. Can I add frustration to it all?
I’m at a loss right now.
Minding my mind 